CHAPTER 17

He walked away.
Just like that?:( Inzain kalemne shway please.
Nazalt rase ou meshait. 


As i was about to sit down he called my name. 
I got butterflies in my stomach, and fireworks in my head!
I missed that feeling wallah:$

Othman: Farah

Me: Hala?

Othman: Ta3alay shway bakalmech

I walked towards him slowly, i turned around to look at Jenna and Amna, they had huge smiles plastered to their faces and they were motioning to me so i walked faster.

Me: Hala Othman shfeek?

Othman: Lail7een tkalmeen Fahad?

Me: La wallah Othman la :(

Othman: Zain, a7san

Me: 9adegne Othman he's a good guy :(

Othman: 3abalech madre? Adre ena he's a good guy! 9a7be akthar mn 3 years!

Me: 3ayal laish sawait kl hatha?

Othman: Abe ma9la7tech! Mabe kl mayshoufech a7ad ygoul Hathe Farah Al Flani, kanat tkalem wa7ed.

Me: Ma7ad begoul chethe!

Othman: La ygoulon!

Me: ... I'm sorry i lost your trust Othman

Othman: That's something you won't get back easily
Ilmohim, i just wanted to apologise for over reacting, although it was for your own good.

Me: Thank you Othman so much for caring ab-

Othman:No, i care about my family name and our reputation, not you.

Me: but Othman please, all i want is your forgiveness and trust back

Othman: Well tough.

Me: Oth-

And he walked away so easily.
How could he do that? 
Shlon 9adagt ena i'm the one he loves?
This can't be right! This can't be true!
Lazem he forgives me lazem.

I went back to Jenna and Amoon. As soon as i saw them i burst into tears.

Amna: Farou7a shfeech? Shfeech goulay ta7achay

Jenna: Omg 7beebty what's wrong? 

I started forcing the words out, but i couldn't finish them since i was crying so hard and i couldn't breathe.

Me: Othman... may7bneeee :'(

I started crying even more.

Jenna: Shaku 7beebty? Akeed he does bs lail7een m3a9eb

Amna: How could he not love someone as beautiful as you are?

Me: He said he doesn't care abo-... me and all he cares abo-... is the family's reputation and he will never tr- me again (trust)

Amna: Abaaih! Shfee hatha tara you didn't do anything + no one knew about you two!
Yallah 7beebty it's okay, don't worry ma9ar shay.
Inshallah y6ekh ou ba3dain kalmeeh

Me: Inshallah :'(

Amoon and JJ were calming me down and eventually i stopped crying and started breathing normally.

We sat there talking about other girl stuff. The clock stroke 12 and we were ready to go outside, tan, swim and jet-ski.


We wore our swimming suits and headed outside. 

I wore this over my swimming suit:

Amna wore this:

And Jenna wore this:

There were two jet-skis which meant two are being used right now.

Amoon and i used one, Jenna used the other one.

We were playing around and racing and having fun till Jenna's jet-skii stopped x_x  

We didn't have extra fuel and we started panicking. 

We didn't even think about going back to shore because we were all scared and we didn't want to let Jenna alone.

There was a jet-skii coming our way, it was Saoud:o 

Thank GOD!

Jenna: My hero :$

Saoud: My princess<3

O-M-G!!! So cute wallah =))

Saoud: Shfeekm wagfeen?

Me: Umm well we didnt check the fuel and.. umm

Saoud: Wegaf 3alaich?

Mashallah 3alaich thakeya! Ya3ne cham marra t9eer feech 3ashan tet3alemain?

El thaka'a ele feech mu 6abe3ee!

Me: Tara mu ana ele wegaf my jet-skii -.-

JENNA!

Saoud: Ohhh

LOL his face was priceless =)) 

Saoud: Umm ehya 3ade, lazem entay tsa3deenha she's your guest isn't she?

Me: Aha ya3ne ana tdous eb ba6ne wetha ehya, ham etdous eb ba6ne?!

Saoud: Hathe ghair hathe<3.<3

7beebty hathe!

Amna: Get a room!

Jenna: Umm S3oud shnsawe al7een?

Saoud: Ana barou7 ayeblech fuel ou bared

Jenna: Take care?

Saoud: Will do babe xx

and he went to get the fuel.

Me: Amoon 6al3ay wayeha galab a7mar =))

Amna: hahahaha sta7at sta7at =))

Jenna: Sektaw :$

Me: LOOOL smallah!

Jenna: Sema3taw shgal! Wetloumune en gelt a7ba?

Me: Yes he's ugly!

Amna: No he's actually 

Jenna gave her a death stare

Amna: umm good looking, but not that i care or aything

Me: C'mon be honest, mnu a7la Othman wla Saoud?

Jenna: Sa3ouude:$

Amna: Umm... tough

Me: La Othman!

Amna: Tbh, Fahad =)) (to be honest) 

Me: -.-' SHAKUUU?!

Jenna: Fahad a7la mn Othman tara =))

Me: Uff bs sektaw all you guys talk about is... OH MY GOD!!!!

Amna: Huh?

Jenna: Shnu oh my god kamlay!

I was at the beach, there he was, that hot tanned perfect but not too muscular figure<3.<3

That six pack that shows from here.

He is so hot! 

With his black wet hair and perfect smile <3.<3

THOSE DIMPLES!

I melted wallah!!!!

Jenna and Amna turned their gaze to the beach.

They both saw Othman and said: DAMN! He's got one hell of a body!

Me: HEY! He's mine :$

Jenna: My hotty's coming back now a9lan look :$

Amna was quiet.. TOO quiet.

I looked at her and then looked to where she was looking... 

ABAAAAIH! SHE LIKE KHALOUUUD?!

Amna's P.O.V: 

Ever since we arrived to the chalet, Khalid has been nothing but nice to me. He's so sweet wallah.

He's Farah's older brother so i try my best to avoid but i just can't. 

He has soft light brown hair and the sexiest smile ever! He has Two VERY ATTRACTIVE DIMPLES! And he always smells amaaaazinnngggg!

I never talked to him properly before or thought of even following him, but something inside me wants to talk to him so bad. 

Today out at see, i saw him from a far, shirtless. I swear it became 10x hotter outside. He was wearing those vilebrequin swimming shorts and they were SO PERFECT on him!He was never a man of patterns so he had plain ones on. He had this perfect tanned skin and those abs, he was so fit mashallah.

His shorts looked a bit like those: 

I should really stop gazing at him, akhaf Farah tshoufne. Omg i think she just did! Khan arage3

Me: Agouk Farou7 that's a grill over there mu?

Farah: Yeah laish?

Me: Sharyech we grill ilyom belail?

Farah: ohh! Good idea.

Saoud filled Jenna's tank with fuel and they started flirting shway.

They're so cute wallah, allah ykhalehm 7ag ba3ath.

So we headed back to shore and i went up stairs to get dressed into a more appropriate outfit.

I wore a maxi dress with a sleeveless jeans vest and flats.

Khalid: Shhaal zain:p Wallah athkerech Amna lama kntay about 10 years old ou kl sa3 tg3deen weyay inshouf movie:p 

Amna: Anaa?:p 

Khalid: Eee entay! Athker ham farouu7a kanat tnam mbacher ou we used to order pizza :p 

Amna: Wanasa! Why don't we do that sometime?

OMG! What did i just say x_x La la mu mn 9eje! 

But i loved the compliment and how he remembered all those old stuff <3

Khalid: Sure why not, i'd love to catch up ;)

He winked and then went outside.

Am i dreaming? Someone pinch me!

Oh how much i lo-

No no no i shouldn't! He's Farah's BROTHER!

Snap out of it AMOON!

So i went outside and sat down with the girls.

Back to my side:

7aram thalamt amoon, kan 3abale ga3da et6ale3 khaloud x_x

But i'd actually be okay with it, they make the cutest couple ever wallah:p

Well them and Jenna ou Saoud:p haha wallah hathol chena romeo and juliet bs bdoun the death in the end x_x

Like cinderella and prince charming

Beauty and the beast

Sleeping beauty and her prince charming

If only life could end with those happy ever afters. But a continuous version were they love each other until death separates them.

Amna finally came outside.

We were all sitting down, even Othman.

Me: Finally yetay:p 

Amna: I was using my phone sorry :p

Jenna: Laaa;) using your phone wla makeup?

Amna: Ay makeup? 7ata eyeliner maku :p 

Khalid: Khaleehm they're just jealous of your natural beauty.

Amna: hehe:$ thank you

3shtaw khaloud flirts.

Saoud: Ma7ad beautiful ghair my future wife.

He didn't look at Jenna. We all knew it was her bs she felt sad, as if she didn't now he meant her. 3ad when it comes to flirting, Jenna sena 3ala matefham x_x

Me: Ou mnu hathe el beautiful?:p 

Saoud: Akhh! Lo tshoufonha, jameelat el jameelat! Esmha Jenna;)

Jenna's face lightened up! A smile was formed and you could see she was excited, ya7lailhm :p 

Othman got up and left his phone on the chair.

Me: Shfeeh Othman?

Khalid: Madre wallah, 7beebta 7ar7eta :p 

Me: ykalem wa7da?

Saoud: Apparently he does.

Jenna: Shdarak?!

Amna: Shaku?

Saoud: Well his phone says:

"Othman: A7bha 3baid:/ 

Abdullah: Goulaha!

Othman: I was so obvious about it, bs shakla mu hamha...."

Me: KAMMIL!

Eldam3a kanat 3ala 6araf 3aine.

Saoud: It's locked

Khalid: Bs khala9 entay shaku?! Khaleeh

I out my head down and the tears found their way out of my eyes and were streaming down my face.

I knew ena Khalild ou Soud shakaw eb kl shay, it's obvious that i love him and he obviously loves someone else </3

CHAPTER 16

This post is dedicated to one of my best readers, Lujain ❤ I really hope you all enjoy this post and please place your comments below:D 

Society. (Not included in the story)

Society has ruined everyone.

Everyone's so judgmental nowadays.
I respect the whole islamic culture, but if two newly weds walk around together, everyone suddenly assumes they're 'dating' or 'she only wants him for his money'. 
They start making up things like 'sa7reta', 'she's a b*tch', 'tkhouna' or even things much worse. 

WELL SUCK IT UP PEOPLE!

Didn't you ever think that MAYBE she loves him for him

Or she's actually faithful

Or he's faithful

Or ehya metrabya mn a7san el tarbeya? 

Even better than how you treat your kids and raise them? 





They see a skinny girl ygoulon 6a3 hathe shwaya wtmout
Don't they think enas ymkn he really is dying? Or she was born that way?

Or when they call a person Fat and they don't even know HALF the things he/she goes through?
Maygadroun theroufhm! 7aram ymkn hal ensan ga3ad yet3athab? Or people are bullying him? People should really start thinking outside the box and get over themselves.



Many people are committing suicide due to bullying and cyber-bullying 

I personally never got bullied, but my partner has, my friends have and many people around us are getting bullied every minute.

People should start carrying




Society should stop judging people and working on themselves



Allah created everyone this way, nothing you do or say is going to change allah's amazing creation.


Ou 3ala fekra   "من عاب ابتله"  

Instead of judging people, start working on yourselves.

Start praying and appreciating what you have before it's too late.



I posted this post because a friend of mine is being bullied at this very moment and it's killing him. 

CHAPTER 15

A voice from behind me said: Bet'hd'ha ou NE9!

The guy suddenly let go of my hand

Guy: Asef wallah mu qa9de

....: Latekalam ou emsh latshouf shay mashefta 6uul 3umrek

And the guy just walked away, i was relieved to find out that the guy was a wimp.

I turned to find Saoud :|

 

Shyayba hnee?

Should i thank him?

What should i do?

 

All those questions kept going through my mind

 

Saoud: Are you okay?

 

Me: Ee thank you

 

Saoud looked at Jenna and Amna and then said

 

Saoud: Aren't you going to introduce me? *smirk*

 

Me: Oh Jenna, Amna, Saoud

 

Jenna: Tesharafna :D

 

Amna: Oh he's in school mu?

 

Saoud: Yeah, i'm Farah's cousin

 

Me: Well... Thank you for what you did, we have to go now.

 

Jenna: WHY?! uhh i mean why?

 

Amna: MOVIE -.-

 

Saoud: hahaha, have fun

 

He smiled only at  jenna and then walked away.

 

 

CHAPTER 14

I'm sorry i haven't posted in a while, it's just that the post i published got deleted somehow and i couldn't find a laptop cos we're in the chalet so.. yeah. and if i had a laptop maykoun fee wifi x_x so sorry. i apologise if it's short, i'm in a hurry.

For the next few weeks i've avoided pretty much everyone.

Khaloud kan yes'al 3ane wegoule shfeech metghayra. I've been faking a smile ever since that date, that break up, that heart ache.

My mum bedat tshek, she actually took my phone from me and saw that i didn't even bother asking for it, so she gave it back the next day.

Jenna ou Amna kanaw ys'eloun 3ane, but i'd reply in the slowest way possible, they knew i was still upset and they tried cheering me up. It worked sometimes, but not a lot. I'd just smile, bs ma7es'ha 6al3a mn gable, i know for a fact enha mu 6al3a mn gable. They knew i was faking it, i love how my friends know everything from my facial expressions. TRUE FRIENDS <3

I never knew that one person can change my whole life

Make me feel so vulnerable 

Yet used to make me feel special

He made me come alive

It was an amazing feeling

He lit up my world

The highlight of my day, month, year, LIFE<3

Now that it's all gone, i have nothing.

But with all the praying and thanking god

I finally came to my senses and moved on

I can say without hesitation, that i'm over him.

Eventhough i loved him so much and he was my first love, we never really went out or had our moment, so that's one of the reasons i moved on easily.

In school when i smile or fake it, he smiles back for some reason. Maybe he felt sorry for me?

Well i don't want his pity, i wanted his love, now i just want him out of my life.

 I don't think this year's my year.

I lost a lover, which i don't really loge anymore; Fahad

A best friend which i treated like a brother; Saoud

Two of the most important people of my life, are now gone.

I know i lost Othman's trust and i know that he'll never talk to me again, but somehow i miss it, i want him to start talking again, i miss the old Othman ele he used to compliment me and i used topenjoy it. I miss those days. I'd do anything to get them back.

When i went to school, the girls started asking me about Othman and if we're related or if i could say hi to him aw asalem 3alaih 7ag'hm.

Seriously Othman? Wain el bnaya ele knt t7bha 7ag two years? Wla was that you lying to me 3ashan i think you're a good guy?

Typical kuwaiti:)

Where did all the men go? The faithful gentlemen?

Don't you hate it when GENTLEMEN are mistaken for KHERFAN?

I got so annoyed with all this talking about Othman i actually snapped at one of the girls that asked me about him. Her name's Ghena, she's in my class.

Ghena: Agoul Farah, mumken tasawele shaghla?

Me: Sure

Ghena: Tgdreen umm... Tsalmeen 3ala Othman 7age?

Me: Ay Othman?

Ghena: Othman Alx ! Mu ur cousin?

Me: Eee :))

Ghena: salmat 3alaih please

Me: Ghena mu mn 9jch! Adreen cham bnaya galatle asalem 3alaih?

Layge9 3alaikm! Tara he's obviously a player! Faj'a chethe everyone knows him! Wain ga3deen? I'm so sick of this! He used to lie to me and tell me he used to love this girl for two years? Khaaair!

Ghena: khala9tay?

Me: ee

Ghena: yal ghabeya! Your cousin thgeeeeel! Shoufay on twitter, he's not following wala bnaya! Ou maysawe accept 7ag wala bnaya tabe tsawela follow!

Ou on instagram, his pictures y9koun 200 likes. Go read the comments, mayred ela 3ala rab3a! Your cousin.. Othman, is so faithful to whoever she is. She's so lucky.

Me: ohh 9j?

Ghena: Ee 9j.

So tgdreen tsalmeem 3alaih 7age?

Me: hahaha sure why not.

Ghena: 9j?!?!?! :D wanasa goulela Ghena Alx tsalem 3alaik

Me: Inshallah.

The rest of the day passed by so slowly. When it was finally 2:15 6ala3t ou ne6art my driver bara. I got in the car and headed home.

We all sat down together on lunch table, i missed it. Mn zeman mu ga3deen weya ba3ath♡

We were eating chan faj'a i remember what Ghena told me about Othman, i smiled involuntarily.

Inshallah ma7ad shafne x_x

Khalid: ohhhhh! Zain shefna hal tha7ka. Awa manawar el bait wallah♡

Me: hehehe madamek mawjoud, akeed benawer el bait

Dad: ee yubaa! Kela khalech chethe mstansa:*

Me: inshallah

Mum: tha7kena weyach shd3wa

Me: hehehe la bs tethakart salfa 9artle gabel :p

Mum: elmuhm enech mstansa

Me: 7bebty mama

So i went upstairs to get ready so I can go out, it's finally thursdaaaaayyyyyyy\o/

I put on this:

But instead of flip flops i wore those:

So after i finished getting ready i went to pick up my girls<3

I picked Amna up first since she's closer to me and then Jenna and we headed to The Avenues

Amna: I've been waiting for this for alooooong time!

Jenna: Me tooooo!

Me: Me threee!

I haven't smiled like this in a long long time, i love what these girls do<3

a9lan without doing anything, just being around them makes me feel happy.

I love thenmm so much.

So we went to 360, we got out and started walking around before our movie started.

I was booking on my phone so i was kind of distracted chan adesh eb wa7ed ou 6a7 my phone ou enkesar.

Me: Laaaa inkesar again

....: I'm sorry for breaking it... again

I lifted my head up to find Fahad, i was actually sursprised to see him.

I said: 3ade. and walked away before he could say anything else.

I turned around to see if he was still looking, and he was. We made eye contact. He smiled so i smiled back, i didn't want to be rude. He keeps smiling at me a lot these  days, i wonder why?

I was still looking back chan adesh eb wa7ed thane -.-

 

Guy: HAAY! matshoufeen wain tamsheen! 3amya?

Me: I'm sorry

I tried walking away chan i feel a strong grip on my hand

Guy: Ta3alay ta3alay wain ray7a? 3abalech bakhaleech taamsheen eb kl suhula? hahaay

Amna: Hed'ha! Tara e7na eb mujama3 we7na banat mu7tarameen! Mu tg3ad tamsek'ha wet9arekh eb ne9 el mujama3!

Guy: Agoul chub entay la kaf!

Me: Ayy ayy ga3ad tamsekne qawe!

Jenna: Bs 3ad! tag3ad testaqwa! Hed'ha!

Guy: Mara7 ahed'ha

A voice from behind me said: Bet'hd'ha ou NE9!

The guy suddenly let go of my hand

Guy: Asef wallah mu qa9de

....: Latekalam ou emsh latshouf shay mashefta 6uul 3umrek

And the guy just walked away, i was relieved to find out that the guy was a wimp.

I turned

around

to find

:o

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